Loosing it??

My whole world seems to be collapsing around me, I feel like I dont have a firm grip on anything latley... except for my husband and daughter, THANK GOD!- I dont know what I would do without them.
I thought I formed a good connection with a coworker and suddenly, she started slipping away. I do not know where things went wrong but suddenly she became distant and shut out. I was worried about her because we use to talk about a lot of things to each other. Then all of a sudden, it seemed whenever I talked to her, it bothered her. She was short with me for a while and I tried to ignore it. But it started getting to me because I worked with her more hours during the week then I saw my family.

I asked her a few seperate occations if she was okay. Immedeatly, she would be defensive right away as if I was trying to engage in conflict. Why would I care if she was okay if I wanted to "start a fight"? lol

Anyway... things have progressivly gotten worse to the point where I just want to leave. I didnt go to work there to make friends. My family NEEDS me to work. Needless to say, I dont have any close friends there, Dan is sleeping while I work and I no longer have a best friend. So when something like these "tiffs" happen, I have no escape out of it. I have no one to talk to. I guess its better this way because if I was close enough to people there to talk about this with, alliances would start to form and mad drama would happen. So while, she goes off and starts going on a texting rampage... I sit quietly with a splitting migraine. Sure, I will be the martyr and take the heat. So what if no one there "likes" me, I am only there to help my family out. And at least I DO my job instead of mindlessly looking and gossiping on a phone.

I am in desperate need of Famale time! And in that female time, could I request the non-fake females who are actually independent, mature adults??? PLEASE???????????