Alone in a box

I was here all along and now find myself alone.

I have no one.

There is no one who can save me.
I am not okay.
I am frozen and alone.

No one. I am frozen and alone.

I cry inside, the cuts are deep.
Heart broken I am forsaken.

No one can hear me and if they do, they turn on me and cut me down.
They break right through my soul.

I am sensitive. with a hard shell.
It is see-through
and my heart is on my shoulder ready to be picked apart

I am not okay.
It gets lonely at the top.

I see my daughter's smile, I feel my husband's touch
They seem to love me more then I love myself.

I look to God and wonder, "is this ever going to end?"
When can I find trust in this blessing called a "friend"?

Why am alone in his world, no woman to confide?
No one seems to want to share their precious time.

"I am here, is no one here to lend an ear. I am desperate."

I curl up on the bathroom floor, tears flowing from my eyes.
This is your happy girl. Now its all a big disguise.
Cant you see the pain and hurt running from my eyes?
Oh wait, your not there, it was just all a bunch of lies.

I am not okay, okay is far away.
Alone in this box
My prison in my heart.