This week I have been SO stressed about my first exam in Economics. It is totally my fault because I spent all of my time this semester really just focusing on my Psychology class and not paying much attention to studying to understand Econ. Well, it all got to me this week because of the test coming up... I swear I will never procrastinate AGAIN! Ugh! Well, today was my exam day and I am happy to say that it wasnt as bad as I made it out to be in my head. I dont think I aced it but I know I passed... and really, that is all that matters to me at this point.
I do not regret not going to school until now but I do feel like me going in now is at my daughter's expense, which I am not okay with. It is a lot of work to keep her busy while I am gone. I am constantly thinking about "Has she been cooped up in the house too long?", "Does she know I miss her too?", "What can I do to make up for the time I am gone from her?", etc... I try to shelter her from the fact that I feel like I am gone way too long from her per week.
What keeps me going is knowing that I am better off getting my foot in the door now before kid number: 2, 3, 4, 5 and 6 comes along... cause I really wont have the time then! And I am doing all of this for my family. In case worse comes to worse, there will be something there for us to fall back on. That fact alone makes me happy.
I love my family and there is nothing I wouldnt do for them <3
Love,
Jessa
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