This song by Taylor Swift would be a song I would have written for a certain someone out there. It really hits home for a multitude of reasons... Have you ever done something that affected you and in turn, changed your world upside down? In this state of mind, you could be left depressed or unhappy. You could be left confused and looking for a way to live a happy life again. How do you find happiness in this new world? Where do you begin?
Finding happiness has to start within yourself. Finding happiness starts when you are happy with yourself and who you are. Dont look to "so and so" and think, "if I was that weight", "if i made as much money as them", "if my marriage was like theirs"... "Then I would be happy". What you will find if you reach that weight "so and so has" then you will find something else to be unhappy with. Dont try to be something you are not... like "perfect". Its not going to happen! When you find yourself in the darkest times, look within, own up and let go of the mistakes you made.
The best way to let go (and the hardest) is to forgive... Finding forgiveness for the things you have done, finding forgiveness for those that hurt you. To hang on to hate and anger feels great at first but after a while, it starts to become you and it can take over. Finding the strength to let go and forgive is being strong enough to finally start new chapters in your life.
In the perfect world, I would love so badly to be able to sit down with the one whom I hurt and to be able to reveal our sides of the story to each other in a respectful and mature way. I would love to get to that point where we would say to each other... "You know what? I hurt you, you hurt me... what we felt was real. I am sorry for the way things went down. If I could do things over again, there would definitly be changes. Lets move on and live the rest of our small lives without hate and bitterness".
This is my "perfect world" statement:
{{A coworker of mine was the unbiased point of view I needed to reveal how you might have felt with the way things were handled... and how you may still feel. All of this time, I felt like my view to see your point of view was clouded because I was just given one side of the story and I became bias to it. It was not fair. Now, I can see clearer and I feel a new sense of compassion for your feelings. Even though I do not understand and agree with some actions you took, I am able to respect your feelings toward me and the situation... when I was not able to do that before. I hope one day you can see that I am sorry for the way I handled certain things that were directed at you and very hurtful... It feels like we were kids then and even though its been a only a couple of years, I am different and more mature... if I could do things over again, I would never done those hurtful things. I hope one day you read this and try to heal. This song is for you.}}
{{A coworker of mine was the unbiased point of view I needed to reveal how you might have felt with the way things were handled... and how you may still feel. All of this time, I felt like my view to see your point of view was clouded because I was just given one side of the story and I became bias to it. It was not fair. Now, I can see clearer and I feel a new sense of compassion for your feelings. Even though I do not understand and agree with some actions you took, I am able to respect your feelings toward me and the situation... when I was not able to do that before. I hope one day you can see that I am sorry for the way I handled certain things that were directed at you and very hurtful... It feels like we were kids then and even though its been a only a couple of years, I am different and more mature... if I could do things over again, I would never done those hurtful things. I hope one day you read this and try to heal. This song is for you.}}
Innocent
(some lyrics were changed)
Guess you really did it this time... left yourself in your war path. Lost your balance on a tight rope... lost your mind trying to get it back. Wasn't it easier in your lunchbox days? Always a bigger bed to crawl into... Wasn't it beautiful when you believed in everything and everybody believed in you?
It's alright, just wait and see your string of lights is still bright to me! Oh, who your are is not where you've been, you're still an innocent... Still an innocent!
Did some things you can't speak of... But tonight you live it all again. You wouldn't be shattered on the floor now, if only you had seen what you know now then... Wasn't it easier in your firefly catching days? When everything out of reach someone bigger brought down to you? Wasn't it beautiful running wild 'til you fell asleep... before the monsters caught up to you? It's alright, just wait and see your string of lights is still bright to me! Oh, who your are is not where you've been... You're still an innocent... It's okay, life is a tough crowd. 22 and still growing up now. Who you are is not what you did, you're still an innocent.
Time turns flames to embers, you'll have new Septembers... Every one of us has messed up too! Minds change like the weather, I hope you remember... today is never too late to... be brand new.
Lost your balance on a tight rope... It's never too late to get it back...
